the 3 letter word ... "but ..."

i was a "baby" when i last wrote a blog entry! .. anyways, that is neither here nor there.

i'm here to share with you how i have been praying regularly that God would move the gov't to process our paperwork so that we can get mei mei! one day, i specifically prayed that it would happen fast, as in "5 days fast". God apparently was hard of hearing that day.

today mommy told me that we received our long awaited "travel approval" call, only to hear the word "...BUT..." followed immediately after. i'm not an english major, by an stretch of the imagination, but when i hear "something, something, something ... (all good stuff that is in my favor)", followed by "... but ...", it almost always is never a good thing!!! i couldn't believe the words that proceeded from mommy's mouth ..."but we cannot travel this month!" WHAT!?!?!?! little A and I were beside ourselves in the car ride home. what was the point of calling us about travel approval, when they actually were not "approving our travel"? i'm only 6, but i'm not stu*** (i'm not allowed to say this word; actually i don't know this word exists). as my teacher says, "that's cray cray!!"

so it doesn't look like 2014 is the year after all. it was so close, but not meant to be.

through this season of advent, i was reminded of how God's people had to be patient for generations and generations, before God felt it time to send His promised Son to earth to be King. they waited and waited; many doubted and disbelieved, while others continued to hope and know with all their heart that God's promise was a promise, and that when the time was right, Jesus would be born.

yes i've waited several years for this "promise that i will have a baby sister", but it certainly has not been generations of waiting. God knows our needs, and though i am sad (very sad) that we will not go to china this year, i'm looking forward to being united with her in jan of next year! this also gives my parents time to get their act together with our chaotic house situation, and of course agree upon a name. shhh. i didn't say that.

until then, we know mei mei is in very good hands.